T minus 22 days

April 13, 2009



Easter Girls, originally uploaded by IVF Mama.

I know that there are millions of working moms out there and soon I will be one of them. Not that I’m counting, but I go back to work in 22 days. I am really sad and to be honest, I feel like throwing a tantrum. However, because I am 30 years old, I will refrain from throwing myself on the floor, while screaming and flailing my arms and legs. I’m sure that would be quite a sight to see, though.

I love being with Elyana all day, every day. I never knew being a mom could be so much fun. When I go back to work, I’m afraid that I will miss the first time she crawls, or walks or talks. I’m afraid that she’ll forget who I am. I’m afraid that by the time we get home at the end of each day, it will be time for her to go to bed and I won’t get any quality time with her. Are these fears normal? Am I crazy?

I do feel incredibly fortunate that my in-laws are able to watch Elyana one day a week and that we have the best baby-sitter ever lined up to take care of her the rest of the week. I also get to take Fridays off for another couple of months, which will make going to back to work much easier.

So, for now, as I refrain from my tantrum, I will enjoy every single second that I get with my daughter. When we go to the grocery store, I will teach her to check every egg in the carton to make sure none are broken. I will teach her that the freshest items are at the back of the shelf, because the grocers want you to pick the oldest stuff first, so it’s OK to dig through the stuff at the front to get to the newest stuff at the back. And when we take walks during the day, I will point out the pretty flowers and show her the cloud that looks like an elephant. While I’m cleaning the house and doing laundry, I will take time out to sing and dance so that I can see her beautiful smile and hear her as she starts to laugh and giggle. I’m starting to sound like I’m about to die instead of go back to work, don’t I? I know it’s not the end of the world and that I will make it through this chapter in my life, with the grace of God.

PS. It’s 1:51 pm, and I’m still in my pajama’s…just one more thing I will miss when I go back to work!


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4 Responses to “T minus 22 days”

  1. corrie on April 13th, 2009 9:19 pm

    I am sure that those are all very normal fears and frustrations. I will be praying for you as you head back to work…but for now you still have 3+ weeks at home and I hope and pray that enjoy every minute!

  2. KyPo on April 13th, 2009 10:14 pm

    Thank you so much for your prayers, Corrie! I need every one of them.

  3. The Best Babysitter Ever on April 13th, 2009 11:36 pm

    A few things:
    1. I know you only called me that ‘cuz you know I read this thing!
    2. You are not crazy, and even though I’m looking forward to being with “E” (as my girl so lovingly calls her), my heart still aches for you. And, I’m sure I’ll be crying right along with you!
    3. Does Elyana’s shirt say “hummus”? Kind of random, but cute… :)

  4. KyPo on April 14th, 2009 8:39 am

    Sara (aka: The Best Babysitter Ever),

    It’s the truth, you are the best and we are so lucky to have you! And I’m not just saying that.

    And more importantly, as much as Collin and I enjoy hummus, we do not display that love on our daughters shirts! It says “Hug Me”, but looking back at the picture, I can see how you would think that. I wonder if people would buy a line of “Hummus” shirts?!?! Hmmm, possible business venture!

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